Funny!
After all longing and thinking back, now that my old life feels “closer” it appears as a corpse, lifeless.
I should move on.
Funny!
After all longing and thinking back, now that my old life feels “closer” it appears as a corpse, lifeless.
I should move on.
Separation first then a slight heating of the white sea until it gave of a vapour.
Let the sea cool of in a cast of iron.
Let then the sun set in the still surface.
But let it be a sun of two, not of six regardless of its colour.
*Results*
The Mercury is much cooler than anticipated. The Sulphidic part causes it to bubble now and again.
Most satifactory!
I mentioned that i wish there was an order like “The Irish Order of Thelema” in a Swedish version (degrees connected to culture, history and the land + the law of liberty) and got the response that i should found one.
Fact is, i once did found an order that survived and initiated for years (even in my absence). It was meant as a Hermetic order including the GD techniques but also several other traditions. It had a degree system inspired in part by the Scottish Rite (though the rituals where unique to it) and in part on the tree of life.
(Me and one other person still has charters to the Ordo Arcanae as it was called).
I noticed a “wee” problem that i had suspected.
Many orders (i am initiated to quite a few) have a founding myth that is sometimes taken too literally and they seem to want to make claims on tranference that on closer inspection just isnt there (to me a charter is a charter, no charter is no charter).

I avoided that and got the feeling that the order would have been more popular (not that that was a goal) if it seemed as ancient as much of its content and if i pretended to have a lineage to a lot of other historical or semi historical societies.
If simply having a member initiated to several high degrees and such of defunct orders was enough (say a GD 5-6) i could claim a “lineage” to the Bavarian Illuminati, Memphis / Misraim, Royal Arch, The Odd Fellow FLT degrees, certain (contemporary) templar degrees, Rocicrucianism, The Golden Dawn, Several Swedish degrees, some neo druidic degrees , AND John the Baptist, Apostles John, Peter and James (i dont).
So could almost anyone by extension if they are initiated to any mystery school (if nothing else since that one will claim such a lineage).
How hard would you say it would be to have a newly founded order get traction and what would be its major obstacles?
Ok, so i was tired and reeeeaaaly bored and there is not much booze around:
Perform the Kabbalistic cross thus:
Touch forehead and vibrate: Dude
Touch gender: Da crib
Touch right shoulder: Da powa
Touch left shoulder: Da sweet lovin´
Touch breast: Da bling an´da swagger, fo´eva an´eva.
word!
Facing east trace pentagram and piercing it with a Mercedes hood ornament vibrate:
Nero
Turn to south and repeat vibrating: Olsen twins
Turn to west and vibrate: Scorpion King
Turn to north and vibrate: Snoop Dog
Invoke the guardian principles around da circle:
Before me: Butterfly knife
Behind me: Moonshiners
On my right hand: Arsonists
On my left hand: Weed
Raise thine arms and voice in da paian: Eheieh Shiznit ( i am da shiznit)
Give the signs of swagger witch are described in tradition as:
Repat Kabbalistic cross
Honestly, i´m not sure if anyone should actually PERFORM this ritual.
Damn, i´m going to hell!

Ps: Gematric value of “Shiznit” (Shznt) is 757, hence the name of the ritual.
The names around the circle are Fire = Shin, Gemini = Zain, Scorpio = Nun , Earth = Tau.
One rough part with any system of attainement, including Theurgical Ceremonial Magick, is that you have to face sides of yourself that you hate or have a hard time forgiving.
There is just no way getting past the negrido stage of alchemy.
Rebuilding without destruction would just be adding.
Doesent mean i have to enjoy it.
L.V.X. I.N.R.I.
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The Secret Chiefs whishes to inform you that the epithet/ name “Ziggy Stardust” is already taken by a another God.
May we suggest “Li´l Archangeldust” instead?
L.:V.:X.:
This sunday i will attend mass at the Homo Est Deus Lodge and local Ecclesia Gnostica Catholica congregation in Gothenburg.
It will be quite a thing that i have been looking forward to.
Despite having been a Thelemite since decades i havent recieved the Eucharist since 96.
I will look into baptism and Confirmation too.
“It’s deplorable that sexually adventurous young women are constantly told they are “degrading themselves” by seeking out various experiences, that every bit of enjoyment eats away at some secret store of purity.
This whole tradition–the idea that women need be preserved in glass so as not to “ruin” themselves, lest they diminish their sexual value by “giving it away”–restricts the lived autonomy of women in ways I can’t even begin to articulate.
None of the slut-shaming makes sense unless you assume women live to give themselves to men in their purest possible form.”
| — | Kerry Howley |
Eliphas Levi:
Our first introduction to the Four Powers of the Sphinx comes from Lévi’s most popular work, Transcendental Magic:
“To attain the SANCTUM REGNUM, in other words, the knowledge and power of the Magi, there are four indispensable conditions–an intelligence illuminated by study, an intrepidity which nothing can check, a will which cannot be broken, and a prudence which nothing can corrupt and nothing intoxicate. TO KNOW, TO DARE, TO WILL, TO KEEP SILENCE–such are the four words of the Magus, inscribed upon the four symbolical forms of the sphinx.”
http://hermetic.com/osiris/onthepowersofthesphinx1.htm
Aleister Crowley:
The Four Elements are the “Forces of Nature, each in its Balanced Strength” represented by the four Kerubic beasts that compose the Sphinx. Like Lèvi, Crowley identifies the Sphinx with the Adept or Magus, who employs the Four Powers to become “whole, Himself, containing all Things in true Proportion.”
Crowley’s definition of the Sphinx continues in Chapter 152:
“This then is the Adept, who doth Will with solid Energy as the Bull, doth Dare with fierce Courage as the Lion, doth Know with swift Intelligence as the Man, and doth Keep Silence with soaring Subtlety as the Eagle or Dragon. Moreover, this Sphinx is an Eidolon of the Law, for the Bull is Life, the Lion is Light, the Man is Liberty, the Serpent is Love.”
http://hermetic.com/osiris/onthepowersofthesphinx2.htm
| Sign | Symbol | Element | Virtue | Latin | Emanation |
|---|---|---|---|---|---|
| Leo | Lion | Fire | Will |
Velle
|
Light |
| Scorpio | Eagle/Dragon | Water | Dare | Audire | Love |
| Aquarius | Man | Air | Know | Scire | Liberty |
| Taurus | Bull | Earth | Keep Silence | Tacere | Life |
| [Sun] | Ankh | Spirit | Go | Ire | Law |
I wonder if one thing that keeps me procrastinating or passive is the mere fact that anything worth doing has so much obstacles in it and so much inertia that it gets overwhealming.
Ramones – I wann Be Sedated!
Lyrics:
Twenty-twenty-twenty four hours to go I wanna be sedated
Nothin’ to do and no where to go-o-oh I wanna be sedated
Just get me to the airport put me on a plane
Hurry hurry hurry before I go insane
I can’t control my fingers I can’t control my brain
Oh no no no no no
Twenty-twenty-twenty four hours to go….
Just put me in a wheelchair, get me on a plane
Hurry hurry hurry before I go insane
I can’t control my fingers I can’t control my brain
Oh no no no no no
Twenty-twenty-twenty four hours to go I wanna be sedated
Nothin’ to do and no where to go-o-o I wanna be sedated
Just put me in a wheelchair get me to the show
Hurry hurry hurry before I go loco
I can’t control my fingers I can’t control my toes
Oh no no no no no
Twenty-twenty-twenty four hours to go…
Just put me in a wheelchair…
Ba-ba-bamp-ba ba-ba-ba-bamp-ba I wanna be sedated
Ba-ba-bamp-ba ba-ba-ba-bamp-ba I wanna be sedated
Ba-ba-bamp-ba ba-ba-ba-bamp-ba I wanna be sedated
Ba-ba-bamp-ba ba-ba-ba-bamp-ba I wanna be sedated
It is like everything is designed to keep you in your place.
With the right family name you could go far in any field regardless of talent, knowledge , skill or discipline but with the “wrong” background it is like everything, yourself included ,conspire to keep you where you are.
Dreams seem far away usually having some prerequisite that often dont feel nessecary
Someone said: “Be so good you cant be ignored”.
I´m not sure it works that way.
First of all if they ignore you nobody will know whether you are good or not.
Second, if they do the chosing, you are only as good as they say you are.
In a sense we still have nobility.
Indie
I´m a big beliver in “Do it yourself” and think both within film, music, dance and many other artforms we will see a lot go places without any big corporations or names in their back.
However, even doing something on your own with little or no budget still takes a whole group of a certain type ,talent and personality.
The Whiner
Notice that i´m not saying there should be no demands, nor that people that have done something for years doesent know what they´re doing.
I´m not feeling down because of a “No” at an audition. Most auditions ends with a “No”.
I´m feeling down because i wont even drag my ass to an audition.
Call it cowardice, call it self fulfilling prophesy, i just havent experinced much traction in my life.
The rule seems to “Stay where you are”.
“When we need a guy from the wrong side of the tracks we will make one”.
Ultimately
….i am fully aware that a big, maybe the biggest problem lies within my own morals.
At least just dreaming of going places and doing things is “better” than getting proof that you wont.
I hate being at the outside looking in and maybe being marooned here in smalltown, cowturd county has made me feel like that more than ever?
A problem with living here is that there isnt even anyone to get a “No” from.