Library???


I remember when the Library was a place for reading books , and if you chose not to, you still had to shut the fuck up.
The worst offenders are the librarians .
Since my computer is broken i sit here in Skillingaryd library trying to read about archeology ,Socrates ,Ancient Levantine Iconography  but i might as well be reading at a pub.
No wonder people are such idjits!
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The Weirdest Emptiness


It is funny!

I´ve got time.

I´ve got money!

Yet my life seems to include less and less.

This place gets more and more tomb like.

The last couple of years have been years of loss, escalating this year, ending me in an empty apartment that seems almost outside reality.

Loss of friends, loss of love, loss of confidence, loss of drive, loss of even the lust to do anything.

Everything outside these walls are worlds away and everybody elses lives jusr roll on.

I am in solitary confinement, an oubliette, left, forgotten.

Manic Street Preachers – Motorcycle Emptiness

BBC Maida Vale Studios, 4th April 2007

So tired i could puke! Welcome to trivial land!


Today i just had this feeling of nausea or inertia over the internet with its social medias wich arent really social (duh) and its constant regurgitating state.

On the one hand we have the places like Facebook and i cant stand another second of people posting the trivial minutia of their lives today.

Places like Tumblr wich are really just people spitting out pretty pictures.

Both places…most if not all places on the web mainly made for people with a micro celebrity complex and no interest whatsoever in anyone else (yup, nobody reads your posts…..just like you couldnt care crap about theirs) and an attention span of three seconds.

The entitled generation spewing all over eachother.

I just had a sandwich, and now i´m gonna tell you eeeeeeeeeeverything about it.
XOXO *LOL* -Conan The Colossal-

 

Should you actually enter a discussion on anything that could possably be of any interest to anyone older than ten or air an opinion it is all mini trolling, oneupmanship and people with little or no actual existence trying to get the “satisfaction” of “winning” the discussion.

I just dont have the energy to post the same arguments over and over to people who think they are intellectuals who has “gotten it”.

Neither do i have the energy to do so for all the fanatics and fundamentalists out there.

I regard myself as a tolerant guy who can in every way stand people disagreeing with me but in the long run, Atheists trying to “save” people with a rigor i have only seen in the Jehovas Witnesses before, racists who hide behind some make belif “heritage”. Having them constantly rain down their gospels over me is just tiering.

“Hah! I am much more Hermeticerer than you!”
“No, i am the Hermeticerest of ém all. I have a personal letter written by the Archangel Ratziel proving it. He texted it to me last friday.!”
“AGREE WITH ME!!!”
“NO, AGREE WITH MEEEEE! I AM A REBEL!” I´VE GOT BRAND NEW ANCIENT STUFF!”

Once upon a time i too belived that the web was a place full of information and the free word.

A place where people could discuss the way grown ups do, with nothing to prove, everything to find and without some obligation to reach a consensus (usually the opinion of the loudest and least educated person).

In reality the internet is to a large part a toy.Nothing more.

Most information is there, but drowned under tons of crap, not that it matters, very few people have any interest anyway.

They are either shallow or pseudo intellectuals passing their pet theories as knowledge.

…..and again, the ones that arent usually have to be DUG up from underneath all the nothingness.

Tired!

Are these critters really of the same custom as i?


Are these critters really of the same custom as i???

To me that is an insult.

To me that is like acknowledging that heathen (or pagan) really means “Hick” or “yokl”.

I am always surprised and get kind of a LARP vibe when i read things like “our folk ways”.

Their “indignation” dumbs my customs down. They really have more in common with snake handling Christians (not to be Christian bashing ) than anything that feels “Norse”.

These people belong in a heavy metal video.

I am straight but i am also educated and my mother is not married to her brother.

I belive in active studies (of academic material), a living custom through folklore and adapting to modern society while reconstructing.

In short, i am a modern Scandinavian, NOT some “Viking warrior” with a need to preserve my “folk” (“they”, regardless of how you count, seem to be doing just fine).

I am simply a person doing my best to live according to a custom such as it presents itself through academia, scientific disciplines (history, archeology, anthropology, linguistics,etymology, semiotics and so on ) ,my own culture and folklore and some philosophical and theological speculation on my own part.

Some of them are Scandinavian. I´m willing to bet they stay clear of blóts of a more mainstream (in lack of  a better term) nature.

They would be verbally (at least) and intellectually bitch slapped by pretty much any follower of the custom i´ve known.

The only threat i see to Norse culture and heritage are these circus clowns.

How can anyone take heathenry seriously with these around?

“Platsar” Bingo?


Bingo Rimér har alltid framstått som intelligent och vältalig i mina ögon men nu hos Malou så vräker han ur sig att om man (som modell) inte “platsar” hos dom “etablerade” agenturerna så skall man plugga till ingenjör istället???

Ytterligare lite av detta Amerikanska , elitistiska dravel som färre och färre går på.

I Bingos värld antar jag att Arnold Swartzenegger är en av världens största skådespelare?

Arnold har varit en av de högst betalda i Hollywood och får väl ses som tämligen etablerad (han är själv en sådan som skulle kunna hjälpa eller själpa en karriär med ett “expertutlåtande”).

Samtidigt så var givetvis Vincent Van Gogh en världelös målare.

Han tjänade knappt en Gulden och jobbade bla som präst. Men som konstnär blev han aldrig etablerad (om Bingo råkar äga en Van Gogh så tar jag gärna skiten så den slipper ta upp plats i hans källarskrubb).

 

"Etablerad"

Icke "etablerad"

 

 

Vi lever i en värld där kändiskulten gör att de företag som är just “etablerade” kan avkräva folk allt möjligt och där normala regler för ett “jobb” inte längre gäller (och i visa fall är det i sanningens namn motiverat. Alla “jobb” är inte vanliga).

Att bli bedömd och få “Nej” ingår i jobbet för alla som sysslar med något konstnärligt vare sig det gäller auditions eller “go see´s” och det är nog alla med på.

Dock ger det samtidigt utrymme för “sågarna” att sänka folk eller stänga dörrar baserat på annat än kvaliteter i själva verksamheten.

Idag skulle tex Marilyn Monroe inte ha “platsat” på de flesta agenturer. Twiggy skulle möjligtvis det eftersom modellbranschen numer ägnar sig åt necrofili.

Det är kanske inte alltid så dramatiskt som att man vägrade ligga med regissören och därför inte fick en utlovad roll men det kan mycket väl vara så att andra “hållhakar” utöver vad verksmheten egentligen kräver finns på plats, allt för en möjlighet till “kändisskap” (let´s face it, idag finns det nog fler som vill bli “kända” än vad än vad det finns som vill bli bra) eller en möjlighet till utövande.

Kort sagt: Etablerad = bra.

Något som tyvärr verkligheten inte tycks hålla med om.

Vi lever också i en värld där “indie” verksamhet blir mer och mer utbredd.

Kort sagt, folk är bra på saker oavsett om dom “får” eller ej.

En gång i tiden ändrades Hollywoods studiesystem genom att skådespelare helt enkelt tröttnade.

Om de som är “etablerade” ihärdar i att tro att dom har något slags sista utslag vad som är “bra, säljbart” eller “gångbart” så kommer dom snart att inse att publik, designers, regisörer, omständigheter och tidsanda också vill ha ett ord med och kan ändra åsikt när som helst.

De “etablerade” brukar oftast svara med att försöka köpa upp. Alternativt så blir de “oetablerade” plötsligt “etablerade” och lika goda kålsupare (Punk och Hip Hop är väl goda exempel. Snart kommer det väl att krävas 50 uiversitetspoäng i “Hiphopologi” för att tas på allvar som rappare?).

Jag tycker att “Fair Faces” gör rätt.

Jag tror på “indie” och att göra själv.

Att visa att de etablerade inte nödvändigtvis “platsar” i ens vision och att ha lite integritet är säkert irrierande.

Att ha lite FAKTISK intresse i sin konstart i en värld där man ombeds att prostituera sig för en budget och en plats bland de “etablerade” är säkert störande med (och drev ut så fullkomligt oviktiga filmskapare som Wells och Chaplin ur USA).

Jag tror naturligtvis på att lyssna på de som är erfarna, ha lite ödmjukhet och inse när någon har hållit på längre.

Jag tror också att många är etablerade just för att dom är bra.

Dock tror jag även att många blev etablerade delvist för att dom sållade utlåtanden från “sågare”.

Rolling Stones blev inte de dom är genom att vara med i “Idol” och ta råd från Bard, en expert som själv började genom att mima över en leksassynth.

Kenneth Brannagh tog (och tar säkert) råd från Royal Shakespeare Company,RADA och liknande på långt större konstnärligt allvar än råd från någon producent som pungar ut pengar och kan öppna dörrar.

På något sätt är det nog bara att inse att de med konstnärliga yrken eller verksamheter går en balansgång mellan industri och konst och att resten är en fråga om prioritet.

The Authorative Idiot


You have probably met him (it is often, not always, a “him”).

The little nitwit with a tie and a title that for some mysterious reason thinks he can teach you something about a subject you obviously know a thousand times more about.

The retard with a title.

I am very aware of what i know.

Iam also very aware of the fact that there is a lot i dont know diddley squat about.

I would never correct anyone on how to repair a car or the rules of hockey.

This kind of person, however, is not REALLY the kind who brings society forward.

He is the kind who upholds it.

The one with the traditions and / or ideals, values, titles.

The CEO, the helper, the boss, in short, the accepted one.

He will never cause a paradigm shift.

I was just in a discussion with one of those tie bearers on operatic singing.

He obviously knows nothing about it, i do…..but he wears a tie so empirical proof means nothing.

He continues to try to convince me that singing in a local church choir is a valid substitution for training as a leggiero tenor (which he doesent even know what it is).

There is formal education / training and informal such, this type of guy usually does not have either or even more usually has formal training but in something completely unrelated and somehow thinks his knowledge “spills over” into everything else.

Physicists discussing theology are an example of this. Then again, so are priests discussing sociology (if they dont happen to have knowledge in those fields too ).

I explained how the vocal chords and the larynx works, i explained the artistic differences…..i explained and i explained but…..as all driven by faith (religous or otherwise) he simply comes back to the same conclusions regardless of presented facts.

Ignorance combined with a title or some similar authority works.

Why mess with it?

I even gave him an example of this put in practice from my own professional life.

I worked as a bartender in Ireland in the 90´s but was replaced (picked out of the bar ) and an 18 year old (Irish….surprise,surprise) boy became bar chief (and thus my “boss”).

This person, being the bar chief AND Irish had to ask me how to make an Irish Coffee (something any Swede could make).

What made him superiour to me was something magical and undefinable, yet to be explained by science called “experience”.

In the restourant business they have this “experience” that seems to be enhanced by big boobs, the right nationality and a few other traits.

It is obviously inert, probably genetic.

It is NOT what normal people call experience since that cant be acquired by doing something you dont know how to do.

“He doesent know any medicine and hasnt studied brain surgery….but he has a lot of experience of performing brain surgery”

In short, i learnt  what wines weant with what and what grapes they where made of, i learnt everything about spirits and destillation, hundreds of beers from all over the world, a couple of hundred cocktails by heart and so on….but….i didnt have “experience”.

That was when i learned that knowledge and skills are meaningless.

When i discuss with a retard of the right ilk i get that confirmed.

If someone has a formal education / training in something that usually means he / she has more knowledge / skill in that subject.

It is however not NECESSARILY so.

Just like an amateur can be better at something than a professional, a person with informal education can know more than one with formal.

But a real academic would go by arguments. He or she would look at your thesis and if you are right you are right (“right” being a very relative term here).

The authorative idiot however is driven by ego and agenda.

He has his programme and like a religous person will stick to it regardless of proof or evidence.

Who gets hurt or crushed, or what dreams or futures (including by extension his own) gets dragged through the mud doesent matter.

He wears a tie.